Last Friday seems so far away, as if weeks have passed since then. So much has happened. I was filled with heartbreak, sadness, loss. There was so much of it that I wasn't sure it would ever leave me. It did, not all of it of course. I knew there would be so much emotion and I embraced it, lived it, surrounded myself with loved ones and spent time grieving alone. I miss Jack almost every day. My sad moments are more scattered. Coming home is a different kind of celebration when old dog isn't there to peer up at me. I always wanted him to enjoy every minute of his long, happy life ....and he wanted the same for me. So I know that life goes on, the sadness will wane. Jack is still here in spirit, in my heart.
We planted a tree in the backyard to honor Jack. T really wanted a tree anyway, so he was happy to bring one home and say "this is for Jack, baby".
We were talking about where to plant it for appropriate shade, aesthetics, etc. I said if it is indeed Jack's tree, it will be in the way half the time wherever we end up putting it.
A heartfelt thanks to all the wonderful people in my life for the thoughts, prayers, kind words, hugs and toasts. I am so lucky to have all of you. A super special thanks to T - I don't know how I would have made it through without you. You were amazing throughout this whole process.
